Thoughts on motherhood Pt1

As I enter my 34th week of pregnancy, I cant help but have a lot of conflicting thoughts. The last trimester is when there is most of baby's brain development. Am I doing the right things to helpthat? Does baby actually like the food that I eat now? Does the fact that I have resumed having cravings mean anything?? How about the fact that just today I crammed nearly half a jar of Nutella without even realising what I was doing? Crazy thoughts like that.
Then there are other thoughts. Being at home for my son, Siddhant since the 6th month of his conception was a carefully thought out and rational decision. But that did not mean that I never missed out on all the things a "working" woman did. I missed petty inter office rivalries. I missed the heavy gossip sessions with my colleagues. I missed that thrill of having a looming deadline and achieving targets. I missed just getting out of the house and meeting adults. But if u ask me,"would I choose that instead of being with my child during his formative years", the answer would be a resounding NO.
Would I miss the fact that even though I had a bad case of the "baby blues"(post partum depression, if u want to get technical about it), my baby's face would light up the moment he caught my eye? Would I miss the fact that he had reserved his first smiles for me? Would I miss the almost telepathic knowledge of what he was doing in the next room gained from 24/7 being with him? Would I miss the fact, that though he treats his dada like Santa Claus,he comes to me when he feels low?
Yes, I am a "stay-at-home" mom. But I get really irritated when people ask me "but what do you do for a living?".
Look, I am a homemaker. That does not mean that I am just "sitting at home". When I remark about this to my hubby, he says, "Vrin, I see you nagging, shouting, dusting, sweeping, swabbing, cutting, cooking, cleaning, washing, phoning, ironing,....but very rarely do I see you just SITTING".
If you ask me, "don't I miss being independent, having my own dough to spend.....things like that?", I would say "yes". But again, that is a small price to pay.